In Hope

In Hope

I was hearing a song, such a beautiful song

So familiar to me that it could easily hurt my soul

It kept playing on and on in my ear until the truth set in

The melody was so plain as it cradled me to sleep.

Thought it was raining but when I looked out the window, there was no rain

Thought I heard your voice hearing you calling my name in the wind but there was only me

Thought the moment I opened my eyes you would be there, still sleeping

Thought I was stuck in yesterday’s dream but I’m not

Thought I was ready for this but why it hurts so much?

Thought I could do this but why my knees, my lips, my heart are all trembling

In a rhythm no one would want to hear.

I didn’t go there to see you go because I knew I was not that strong

I would rather keep in my heart a memory of us together

Than watch you go for I was sure it would break me into tears

You know me, when I cry I tend not to stop and I lose all my logic

That’s not what I wanted to happen.

You could smile when I say this but I want to be really strong this time.

Because in the heart of my heart, I know we’ll be back together again.

Alex, remember you drew me with that exaggerated big nose?

Calvin, remember when you edited all textbooks we had at home?

Ron, you know that Kuya loves you so much and you are always our bunso.

Jojo, just one more year and you’ll be an engineer!

Nix, thank you for being such a strong sister to us.

Chris, I always love you. We love you.

Psyche, I am always your Kuya Minan.

Mama, I promise you that one day all your dreams will come true with the permission of God.

Papa, you be strong okay?

I am just right here. Yes, I still cry but I am fine.

Love you all.