Resting

Today is my rest day and I am doing everything I can to relax and put everything at rest. I need a break from everything. And now I am writing again. I strongly believe that there is a very significant reason why I am gifted in arts and writing. These will be my tools in becoming an effective disciple of Christ.

I am starting everything new for this year. This month of January is the testing-the-waters part. I had my hair colored. I am writing again. Planning my application. Preparing for the job interview. Thinking business. Finding ways to have more time to spend with more important things than traveling to work and going home which consumes most of my time and energy. I am also thinking of sharing more of myself to the Church. I decided to move into VCF Calamba Center.

It has been one of the biggest decisions I made last week. It was not easy because I already had friends in VCF Alabang. I also felt that I was first called in the Main Center. But I have a feeling that I am not growing effectively there because I don’t really know. I am not shining. It might be because I was for something, or somewhere else. I already talked to Hero and Dexter about it. They prayed for me.

This coming Sunday should be my first day in Calamba Center. But I might still attend in the Main to support Bryan’s Small Group. I think my very role in this life is to encourage people. That is why I need to develop more wisdom.

Bless me, my LORD.

Surrendering All

Going on half-day

Yesterday I was so restless that I couldn’t concentrate in my work. I asked Poppie if I could go on half-day. Poppie was so kind that he understood my situation. It was so personal that I needed to talk to a very important Person. This all I can say about that ‘talk’.

All or nothing

Around four I went to Flat Rocks alone. There I swam in the cold water from those little waterfalls in the rocks. It was also raining softly and because I was all alone, I took off all my clothes. I prayed, sang praises, and cried in my nudity. I was born with nothing, so I came to Him with nothing but all myself.

New Self

I was thinking to be different the next day when I report to work. It was either I would have a haircut or have my hair colored. Around six while walking along Lopez Avenue, I flipped a coin. If it were the head, I would have my hair colored and it was. So I got my hair colored.

Conclusion

I am still in process of weighing my options. No fear for I am saved by grace.

Surrendering All

Going on half-day

Yesterday I was so restless that I couldn’t concentrate in my work. I asked Poppie if I could go on half-day. Poppie was so kind that he understood my situation. It was so personal that I needed to talk to a very important Person. This all I can say about that ‘talk’.

All or nothing

Around four I went to Flat Rocks alone. There I swam in the cold water from those little waterfalls in the rocks. It was also raining softly and because I was all alone, I took off all my clothes. I prayed, sang praises, and cried in my nudity. I was born with nothing, so I came to Him with nothing but all myself.

New Self

I was thinking to be different the next day when I report to work. It was either I would have a haircut or have my hair colored. Around six while walking along Lopez Avenue, I flipped a coin. If it were the head, I would have my hair colored and it was. So I got my hair colored.

Conclusion

I am still in process of weighing my options. No fear for I am saved by grace.

Transition, Another Word for Change

Transition, Another Word for Change

I am getting worried that my new boss, Poppie, might feel different towards me. I don’t know how to say it. It is just that my personal schedule is kind of fully-booked if I might say. I only have two rest days in a week. One for my family and laundry. Another one for Gracia. My travel time is taking some of it, too. A little time difference of staying in the office could result to more time in traffic, more time on the bus, more tired body, and irritation. You know what I mean to say?

It is not that I don’t want to spend time with them. It is just that when they ask for a team get-together, it is asking more of me. I understand that part of my work responsibility is to mingle with them which as much as I can, I am really trying.

Like last time, it started January 7, I joined the fasting season in our church. I requested for vacation leaves last year for this so that I don’t need to go to work. But none of them was approved. So I was on special fasting. For the first five days it was a two-meal fasting. On the sixth day I was on one-meal fasting. On the seventh day I was on liquid fasting. During this week, I was trying to avoid talking that much because there are conversations which talk about foods and other worldly stuff which should be okay only if I was not fasting.

There was even a day that they were all talking about foods, delicious foods that they were like describing it in details that just simply hearing them was making my stomach to churn and sometimes it felt painful. When they shared they food and delicious snacks with me, I kindly shook my head like I didn’t have appetite yet for foods. I couldn’t tell them I was fasting. One thing I learned from Victory Weekend, don’t tell people you are fasting. It is in the Bible.

I know Poppie is kind enough that I don’t need to really worry about it. I am just thinking.

Anyway there are many new faces on the floor. But I just don’t have time to let them all in into my life. As if they want to be in my life, laughs! What I am saying is that, I just noticed, I am becoming less friendly these past weeks. I am just thinking too much things more than ever I did before.

Each day it feels like I am losing my interest in my job. But I keep holding on until something better comes up and sure. But I am fine. I have a so powerful God who knows what is good for me.

The Clan, for the Second Time

Last Friday, there was a team building in California Gardens for Pacers but I was not able to go because I had already plans for Thursday, January 14, which is the 44th birthday of Mama, and Friday which Gracia and I planned weeks before to meet and spend time together as we missed each other more than a week.

I was also busy finishing the Scrapbook which is my gift for Gracia for Christmas! Laughs! Funny that it almost has reached Valentine’s before I finally had given it to her. I am so happy that she liked it! Everybody did! Her whole family and even the lady in gift wrapping station in Walter Mart.

That Scrapbook tested my patience, my resourcefulness, my artistic spirit, and I feel so good that it went well. It has pictures of Gracia and I, some are solo pictures, and many of them have us together. There are also other pictures with eightmiles in them. I also included those old notes Gracia gave to me long before to inspire me, to simply encourage me, and to make me smile. Some old things from past like a tissue when we ate together in McDonald’s for the first time, BINGO cards we played with in 2004, and many other memorable things. I also wrote some text messages I received from her and from our eightmiles friends. Seeing her happy is making me happy, too.

I met some of her relatives from Pampanga on her father’s side, one of them was Zyke, what a name, I know. Laughs! You need to listen to this, I was invited for the Fiesta they will have this coming April in Pampanga! That made me both excited and nervous! I met again Ate Amy. She got so drunk and she talked so much about many things that remembering them all in my head, I can’t help but smile. Gracia has an amazing family. I feel so good that they all welcome me into their family. I am so happy. And will be happy as each new day wakes me up to a beautiful morning…

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!

I know writing this now is kind of ‘so overdue’. Forgive me. I was lazy and busy, to tell you the truth. Laughs! It might be the season and some other things. Important thing is that I am happy. We all are happy. We all should be happy.

Year-End Get-Together

I want to write things as much as I can remember starting from December last year. December 30 I spent the whole day until the next morning with Gracia, Jeph, Comy, and Arnel. Jerlie was supposedly coming over but because of her demanding work schedule, we missed her on that year-end get-together. It was okay but of course, it would be a lot better if she was with us that day, too.

We planned to watch movie in Pink Hauz but I guess, we got bitten so much by the miss-you-and-hugs kind of feeling that we didn’t notice how fast time flew by that I woke up the next day, rubbing dreamland off my still sleepy eyes while saying, “Spending last day of the year with you all..? What a shame…” Then we all laughed.

That was a beautiful time being with these people I love the most in the world like a family to me. Whatever Arnel and I had before, that was cleared and we are both ready to start new life with each other’s sweetheart. Him with She and I with my lovely Gracia.

Comy was so funny as he got drunk as the night surrendered into the darkness. We discovered so many funny mature things about each other. It was so much fun. And to try to detail it all out here, I know my dancing fingers here on the keyboard will fail to do so.

I know this New Year will be a lot better than the previous year for eightmiles and for our families.

New Year, New Goals

There are now so many issues on the floor at Sykes. Many people are thinking of moving into the greener pastures. I don’t know what to say, really. I am also now thinking if my stay at Sykes is worthy. Financially wise, I don’t think it is a good thing to stay. I am not getting younger anymore and I need to do something that would allow Gracia and I to get that freedom we long to have so to settle down real soon, hopefully this year. It is either I look for a distant job location with a lot higher salary or somewhere nearer to our home city so the transpo will be cut into half.

I know I really need to do something but right now my mind is kind of…dull. Now that I mentioned the word ‘dull’, I find it funny. Laughs! These days it is so cold here in Calamba, running around 26°C. I know I am just adding another reason to be a little lazy to fix all things, but I just can’t help it…I am feeling a little lazy to attend to all things waiting on the day when I would finally say, “Here I am, ready to fixing. Here’s what we’ll do…”

Now that I am writing again, I believe it is a good sign. I am beginning to come back. Here is the list of the things I should have done already as 2010 started.

1. I should have written about my year-end posts for Reporting Fernand Yim and My Name Is Fernand Yim.

2. I should have written new entries for the Pastor’s Notes for Reporting Fernand Yim. (They are piling up!)

3. I should have finished the prints for my supposedly writing gift for my friends and colleagues from work. (Better late than never!)

4. I should have had my first haircut. (What’s in for 2010?)

5. And I should have had started preparing for my ‘transfer’ to…secret, laughs!

Now this year, here is the list of the things I would like to achieve.

Writing

1. Get started with new categories for Reporting Fernand Yim such as Movie Reviews, Book reviews, and many more.

2. Pursue my new blogsite for call center aspirants.

3. Get a real writing job for online sites and printed media.

Friendship

1. More time to spend with my friends.

2. Get our exclusive blogsite for eightmiles updated as much as I can. (Please see In The Vicinity.)

3. Have more time to send text messages, and if necessary give them a call, to all of my friends. (So it would require a brand new phone then. Not bad. Laughs!)

4. To be a blessing to all the people I am surrounded with everyday. (…)

Career

1. Still thinking, it is either I will take another job in a call center (for a higher position or better pay) or in an Ad business. (Please Jesus!)

2. Pass resumes to Teletech in Makati or to Chase in Taguig. (There, now you know.)

3. Get an online part-time writing job.

4. Lastly, this year will never catch me as it ends in December as a mere call center agent. (I deserve to go up the ladder, laughs!)

Personal

1. Be a worshipper of the LORD as being part of the music ministry in our church.

2. To write songs for Jesus.

3. Be an effective leader for Small Groups.

4. To write more God-inspired articles in my blogsites.

5. To achieve the fit and healthy body that I used to have, laughs!

6. To control my spending.

7. And to get married. Smile.

And above all, I want to have more time for Jesus and to know Him more. Amen to that.