Just A Note

Just a Note: Goodbye and Hello
November 23 Monday

After learning about Dex’s plan working abroad I was feeling a bit sad. I feel sad because our friendship will be limited to electronic messages which should be fine. I was the first one to know which means the first one who got unhappy. But we will support our friend Dexter and we will pray for him.

Then I received the following text message from Hero.

Hi Bro, this is Hero from Victory Alabang. I’m happy to tell you that you will be a part of my Small Group from now on.

I feel happy and sad about the message. Happy because I will know and will be making friends with more Christians. My Christian life is growing! I am sad because it feels like it only confirms that Dex is surely going to leave early next year for abroad.

I think God wants me to be more independent and to some point, I feel like God is preparing me for a big thing. Whatever it is, this will glorify the LORD.

Just a Note: Tap-My-Shoulder Kind of Thing
November 24 Tuesday

After peeing so much blood and even if I tried to deny to myself the fear which was overwhelming my spirit, I thought of many people I could share with what was going on. I thought of my family, of Gracia, of eightmiles, of my friends, but the thought of making them worry didn’t give me enough courage to say a word. Then finally I decided to text Dexter about it since that his course is medical related, he might have a better advice.

I was thinking that because Dexter is my friend, I was expecting so much comfort from the message that would be coming from him. I was praying to God so much and I was getting all my strength from Him. Still, I was expecting something from Dexter would make me feel better, too.
Then he sent me the following text message.

Will pray for you. Pa-check up ka rin, Bro.

My excitement easily died away upon reading his very short, and, ehem, a bit sharp and plain message. I was…disappointed. I was like wanting to talk to my cellphone and tell him, “Is that all you could say? Where is tap-my-shoulder kind of thing?”

Then later the day he sent another message which I thought was a lot better than the first message.

Huwag kang mahiya at matakot na magpa-check up, Bro. Harapin mo yan. Pa-check up ka agad. Will pray for you.

Just a Note: Comfort and Hope
November 25 Wednesday

After Dexter, it was Ms. Shee who I confided about it. When I saw her on the floor while waiting for Ms. Agatha, I felt like I wanted to find comfort from Ms. Shee. She gave me a warm hug and it felt a lot better. She even sent me the following text messages.

Please update me kung what result ng check up ha? Ingat ka.

Ah okay. Sige update mo ako ha. Magpahinga ka at saka huwag mo kalimutan uminom ng gamut. Night.

And beautiful news was coming from Nicalyn which had made me feel so proud of her. It gave me new hope. She said in a text message:

Declared na ng College Secretary naming na running for Cum Laude ako. Hay, sana din a madapa pa.

Just a Note: Encouragement
November 26 Thursday

I feel so blessed having a friend on the floor like Daphny. She is so sweet and sincere and I didn’t know that to some point I was able to encourage her to have herself checked-up by a specialist, too. LORD God will keep us both safe and healthier.

Her message said:

Good morning, kumusta ka na? Alam mo I really prayed hard last night for your good health. God loves you kaya I know hindi ka Niya pababayaan. Ako nga nagpa-check up na rin kahapon. Tomorrow pa results. Text back.

Just a Note: Mini-Fever
November 27 Friday

Early this morning my brother said I was warm, or almost feverish to touch, right after he touched my left hand. I didn’t believe him that I had to touch myself to feel my self. I didn’t feel any pain or anything wrong with my physical body. I knew I was fine. That was even proven by my sister as she touched me on my right hand to feel my temperature and she thought I was okay.

Now that almost an hour passed by I am feeling a little warmer. I am thinking it might be just psychological about the change in temperature since my brother said I felt like I had a fever, or mini-fever. I don’t want to focus on what I am feeling or whatever it is going on in my body. I don’t feel pain anywhere and I should be okay. I don’t want people, especially people I love the most, to worry about me.

Whatever it is, I am ready. Only I pray that it would not cause another round of financial strife in my family. I don’t want to be a burden. I am also thinking that I might be exaggerating to some point. But every time I think of it, I feel so absurd. How peeing bloods could be okay? I don’t know what to think.