My Name Is Fernand Yim: July 2008

Bad Voting In Pinoy Idol

I am taking this chance to express my deep disappointment with the results of Pinoy Idol. You see, I am a fan of the show. In the beginning of the show, my bets were Toffer and Penelope. I thought they were the ones who would be competing on the Grand Finals! That would be a very exciting showdown! Now I would be dreaming forever on that one. Sigh.

Why Penelope was eliminated? She was so good, beautiful voice and all that. OK, she maybe a little childish but hey, she is young! Among the girls, in my own opinion, she is the best.No offense to other fans. And Toffer? Wow, did you hear his rendition of You Made Me Stronger? That was awesome! It would be a sure big hit once it is recorded and released.

Anyway, as my disappointment with the show grows deeper each day, (and what happened to the Pinoy Idol Extra?), I am taking measured steps and plans now, making sure that everything is on favor of me. Arg, I believe it is about time for me to think of myself. I am not getting any younger...but I'm good.

And before I say goodbye, I would like to thank Jae Em for helping me again, and for the encouraging words. Big thanks, Bro.

I'm good...

I know that my life now is taking a big change. Err, as if that's something new to me. Anyway there were couples of good and bad things going on. Arg, why can't I just have the good ones even for a couple of months or so? Please?! (Laughs)

So far, writing is dominating my days which is good. Last Saturday there was an 'internal hold-up' that happened and I instantly ran out of money. All of the sudden I couldn't do anything. I was limited to many things. I stayed at home, feeling the Ginger feeling getting so suffocating that I thought I wouldn't survive the day! Sunday came and things were getting more irritating. I couldn't go out and do the things I should be doing. Funny but I had to admit I was running out of faith, too. I realized how weak I was, being a Christian.

I was so desperate looking for help. First level, I contacted my closed friends (well, that was I thought so). Second level, I contacted my long lost friends and, ehem, relatives. Nothing was working so I went up to the Third level. I contacted the no-no people. It was hurting me so much. Especially when there was this person I thought a friend to me, who offered indecent proposal! I was so offended that I was almost crying in my room.

I felt so bad that now your wishes are coming true, that they are actually there in front of you, but you can't touch them, I thought I was going crazy any moment. I thought I had done everything I could think of to have at least a solution to my problems.

There is also my family who is now putting more pressure on my shoulders. God, I know it is just a process and You are with us...but I am losing...so much now.

Since there was nothing I could do, I finally had my exercise back and I thought it felt so good. I read some good books, too. I cleaned my room thoroughly. And as if that was not enough, I sang all day. (Laughs)

You know when things are getting so cruel on you, in one way or another, something happens that makes you happy instantly. Mababaw lang naman akong tao. Just simple text messages from my friends had made me happy. And Gracia called me for like one and a half hours. It was nice talking to her.

Now I think I am feeling good. Yesterday I just finished my entry to the Top Blogs, I finished my Luneta story, I finished my survey questionnaires and sent them to my friends, and there were so much more.

Now I am good. To my friends who remained super patient with me, a big-time thank-you to y'all! God bless us all. Yeah, may God always bless us...

One more thing, I am planning to leave Calamba for awhile. I have to move into my Aunt's. Need internet connection. And also, I am planning to go back to my old home-Teletech.

ABoveNORMAL

Now That's Starting...

I was happy yesterday and, of course, thankful. It was fun meeting again Janette Toral together with Joan. They are so approachable and down-to-earth people. It was fun listening to how they were updating each other about their lives. And I was learning at the same time.

Going there, actually I just realized this that going to Manila is always an adventure for me. I don't care anymore if the Konduktor gets irritated with my reminders. It's their fault. They always forget. Tapos sa huli, sisisihin ka pa nila. Arg!

Now I am excited with my new project. I am now making the outline of the proposal which I am going to submit to Janette Toral hopefully by this weekend. I am also thinking of creating a new blog which will be about my new novel. Another attempt. Well, there is nothing wrong with trying.

So that only means, I might get busy these coming days.

Yes, I Am Happy...

Before I went here in my favorite computer shop near Letran, I had so many things in my head that I was hoping to write them all here. And now that I am trying to remember them, it feels like my head is empty. Arg!

So I just decided to do some reporting about my...ehem...life.

First in my list is to congratulate Alex for getting promoted in her work, from being a 'good' CSR to a Team Leader for a new account in Teletech-Lipa. Cheers!

Second, let me tell about my application with EMCI. The story started like three weeks ago. I received a message in my filipinowriter.com account asking for my resume. Innocently I sent out my resume. The following day I received a reply, a bit less informal this time, saying that the sender was very happy to know that I know her friend whom she was referring to as her best friend. She did mention the name of her best friend but, err, I didn't know her either. But I decided to remain silent about it because I was thinking of my application with them.

Then Tuesday last week I was scheduled for series of exams with them. Funny thing here was that I did not have pamasahe that day. Actually the orginal date was scheduled on Monday last week. But since I did not have pamasahe, they moved it on Tuesday. I texted Jae Em, hoping he could lend me some money. It was weird because he was asking if it was okay kung coins lang. Confused I was yet I said it was fine with me. When I went to their house, he gave me literally coins amounting to P500! It was like, wow! I was touched by the thought that he was still there supporting me in the weirdest way I could think of. He explained that he didn't have ready money that time, however, he thought it was very urgent so he offered his piggy bank instead. Ouch!

So to make this story short, I was able to take my exams on Tuesday. There I met a very young doctor, she was only twenty-eight, who was applying for the position of a content writer. She was really nice and, ehem, very beautiful. After some long minutes, we took the exams. From time to time, I had to wipe my nose while taking the exams because it was bleeding! Laughs! It was so difficult yet fun.

Then after a couple of days I received an invitation for an interview, that was yesterday. It meant I had passed the exams! Wow, cheers!

I went there like an hour before the schedule. It was not because I was excited or something. I just didn't want to be late. While waiting, my chest was aching. It was like any moment my heart would stop from beating. Arg, not a good way of dying, eh? During the interview with Ms. Tamayo, she was very nice and beautiful, I was still nervous. The interview went on like thirty minutes or so. I think it went fine. Still, to be honest, I still worried and was hoping for the best. At least, that was the only thing that I could do now, to hope for the best.

Whatever would be the result, I was happy with the interview. I met Gracia to spend beautiful time with her. We met in, ehem, WalterMart. We ate ice cream and talked about not-so-important things yet we were so happy. Than we went to Beanstalk in Crossing-Calamba. All the tables were occupied but still there was one available for us. We were like crazy while taking pictures and making fun of almost everything. It was a beautiful night and I was very happy about it.

Tomorrow I'll be meeting Janette Toral. I am excited and I hope everything will be okay.

Muntik Na

Last Sunday night, I thought I was at the peak of my Ginger Allergy. I was so terribly upset. And I felt so alone. I was desperate to have a good talk with anyone. But no one was available. Though there were some good friends who made some efforts to send me messages of concern.

The next day I was still upset. Around nine in the morning I received a message from Nicalyn that Manix Abrera would be in UPLB! Suddenly I couldn't contain all my excitement. I was so happy. So I prepared all the four Kikomachine Komix and the FHM issue in which he was featured. I searched for my favorite pen which I hoped he could use. While taking a bath, I was thinking what would I tell him. I should say something really wise, funny, and remarkable. It was funny when I realized I was also very nervous. Wow, I was so crazy that time. Hindi pa ako nakakaalis pa nun ng bahay.

When I was ready to go, I asked for some money from Mama so I could go there. Eto ang hirap pag wala kang trabaho, I felt so helpless. Then Mama said, "Wala akong pera. Hintayin mo na lang ang Papa mo."

Oh. My. God. Screams! Aaaaaahhhh!

It was a very bad feeling. It was like you were being offered a cake but you couldn't eat it. Bad feeling. I couldn't smile. I decided to just sleep and forget it. Perhaps it was not yet the right time for me to see Manix. Arg!

In the afternoon, when Jojo arrived, I told him about everything. I didn't know Mama was listening, too.

She interrupted: "Ang layo kaya ng Diliman dito, buti sana kung dyan lang sa Los Banos, e di nabigyan pa kita ng pamasahe."

I was stunned and speechless for a moment. Diliman?

I told her: "Mama, it was in UPLB!" Di ba yun ang sinabi ko? Arg!"

She said: "Ows? Yun ba sinabi mo? Eh di yun ang narinig ko. Pasensya ka na."

Another scream! Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!

The end of the story.

Lesson? Make sure your Mama heard you right. Ask her to repeat all the words you just said to make sure.

Trouble With The Pictures

Last week I was trying to do all the things I had to do. My priority was to send all the complementary pictures to Janette. There were so much things to be done. I was trying to look for a time-friendly job as well so that I could still keep my writing life which is so important to me.

I remember that was Tuesday, if my memory is right, I was trying to transfer all the pictures from the digicam to the laptop with Ramon. I didn't know what was wrong with his laptop but it was not working. So after trying there, I decided to rent a computer in Calamba before going home. It was around seven in the morning. I don't like saying this but their computer sucks! It was terrible so after trying some more, I left without any success. Around eleven at night, I noticed the pictures were no longer in the camera! I was about to panic when I just hoped that the pictures were still in the computer. So I planned to return early in the morning the next day. That was what I did. I was praying while I was searching in the computer but, to my horror, it was all gone! There, I started to panic! I asked the staff if they could help me find them. And of course, they couldn't find it. I asked them why. They said they just re-programed the computer because it was broken. Back in my head, I was wondering why then on earth they let me use that computer? I noticed all the files that I saw yesterday were still there except my pictures. There I couldn't help but asked:

"Are you telling me it was only my file that was missing after you updated your computer? Isn't it funny?"

"Yes, sir." The staff said.

I was trying to control myself but I was about to lose my patience. I was also thinking what should I do next. Janette were expecting the pictures. So I just left after paying Php35.00 while wishing the whole place would be gone. Arg!

I texted some techy friends I know, hoping they could help. I went somewhere, trying to think of something wise to do. One thing was sure, I just couldn't go back to Intramuros to take again some pictures. In the midst of my desperation, I learned something. I also realized my fault. I should have provided a back-up for the pictures for cases like this.

Before I went home, I went to my favorite computer shop near Letran. I was thinking of sending Janette an e-mail of explanation. When I was there, out of curiousity, I tried again opening the pictures in the computer from the digicam. And it was like God had performed a special miracle for me because all of the sudden the pictures were there again! Of course I was very happy! And that was the end of it. Happy.

The Beautiful Gifts

>> Wednesday, July 2, 2008 – Fernand Yim, Ginger Allergy, The Love Story

It feels so good that someone loves you so much that she always cares for you, makes beautiful things for you, remembers you, thinks of you, prays for you, misses you, and gives beautiful things like these in times you least expect it.

Every time I look at these things, I feel so blessed and thankful at the same time. I could not thank you enough. But here I am, giving myself a try. Wherever I go, I always remeber you. And I know...I will never be alone.

Thank you so much! One day, if God would allow me, I would want to make you feel as wondeful as I am feeling now because of you. I am feeling good. Even though I am still in the process of healing myself.

There is a special bond between us that fate may try to destroy but it will never succeed.

Always take care.

Yo Amigo,

Fernand Yim

Things Getting Weirder Than Ever...

>> Tuesday, July 1, 2008 – Friends And Relationships, Life Of A Bum

It was so weird whatever it was happening to my life now. There were so many ridiculously funny things that happened to me which sometimes I just found myself lost into the Unknown. Okay, I might be losing my confidence while my tummy fats are slowly covering my once-beautiful-and-sexy abs.

My friend just told me maikli daw ang leeg ko. Arg, as if that was something I should be worrying about now. Still, he sure did make me more upset.

I am thinking of a very special friend right now who is planning to earn her first million. She is so amazing. She is full of strength, hope, and she is like not ever going to give up. I am really inspired and challenged. She is now writing her first novel. There, I am thinking, no, I am actually plotting my new novel (this time a romantic one, ooohh challenges are piling up!) now and hopefully I could start later today.

Yesterday I went to Ortigas for my interview invitation at Robinson's Equitable Tower. The company was TeleDevelopment. It was fine even though the whole process took like more than half of the day. I didn't take my lunch. And I was able to pass. Thank God! And surprise, they gave me then my endorsement to a call center somewhere near the area. Okay, so they were like an agency? No choice but to give it a chance. So I went to TRG which was offering an outbound account. Another surprise that I had to go another recruitment process. It was like starting all over again. Okay, I did pass again. I should be happy about it, almost celebrating about getting a new job which would be starting right the very next day! That is today. The final interview was scheduled 11:30pm last night. I was like, okay, I am from Calamba.

So that meant six hours and so before the final interview. Yes I was feeling good that out of thirty-something applicants I was one of the two who were for final interview. I was also told that it was just for the formality reason. We were just required to speak to the Team Manager. It was cool, right? Problem was, I didn't have allowance yet to support my training with them. I didn't know anyone near the place either. So what I did next was to call Mama. I told her everything, asking her permission if I could turn this one down. She said it was okay. Good.

So that would be the beautiful life! Anyway I am still okay with it. Right now, I'll wait for another invitation while writing my new novel. And friends, wish me luck! And God bless me, us!