The New Me

I know whatever I am going through now is a process. It can't be done just overnight. And I am being patient on this. Actually I am feeling so calm, so good, so safe inside. I think the roller coaster ride was now over. The Now-I-am-okay-later-I-am-not feeling is way over. And it is so good! No more pretension about it. It is the truest thing that I had since the ginger thing started.

After that visit in Gracia's place, everything went amazingly fine. I am comfortable to say now that I feel no more fears. Last Sunday, Papa attended a church service with Alex, my brother. When he arrived at home, he had so many candies in his pocket. It meant he was quitting his smoking habit. It was so wonderful. And the Friday night that I was not home, Tita Sol dropped by the house with some 'goods' for us. God is doing great things amazingly in our lives.



Yesterday I had a date with Gracia and Comy. Arnel was supposed to be with us until something went wrong that he couldn't see us yesterday. We understood each other. No explanation was required for that one.



We watched A Very Special Love. It was a beautiful movie. It was very funny, and I could relate to some situations there in the movie. We were laughing by each other. We admired the story, it was written so well, very Pinoy, and it was simple and easy. Although Gracia had said, "Nakakakilig siya pero hindi siya nakakain-love..." We kept taking pictures of ourselves every time we found a chance. We even had couples of picture with Wall-E and his girlfriend. It was very funny.



After watching, we went to, ehem, where else? In 7-11 in Crossing. There we had cups of coffee. We talked about funny and beautiful things. We talked about my recent and last ginger experience. Telling that to Comy, it was funny now that I realized it. We also talked about the Bible, their church, infidelity, and the...sex. It was educational, providing each other personal views on these topics in the most eightmiles's way. I always felt so comfortable having them with me, I never had a hard time, not even I got embarrassed a bit telling them my worst, it was so cool! And they felt the same way towards my presence. We were bound by a special cord that I would be always thankful for.



While talking, it was a surprise to see Alden walked into the store around ten in that evening. Not that he never did that before. It was just that I never thought that he was finally back from Dubai. We never had enough time to update each other about life, but he promised to send me a text message if ever he would be planning to celebrate his birthday, which is today, with us his friends.



Before midnight hit the clock, we said sweet goodbye to each other. We were excited seeing each other again next Sunday. We would attend a church service in Lipa, in Comy's church. That would something I am now looking forward to.

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To Alexis,

I know I will never have the idea how it is you're feeling right now. I really wished I was with you those times. I keep praying for you. Hope you are feeling better now than the last two weeks. I hope to see you soon.

God bless...