I'm good...

I know that my life now is taking a big change. Err, as if that's something new to me. Anyway there were couples of good and bad things going on. Arg, why can't I just have the good ones even for a couple of months or so? Please?! (Laughs)

So far, writing is dominating my days which is good. Last Saturday there was an 'internal hold-up' that happened and I instantly ran out of money. All of the sudden I couldn't do anything. I was limited to many things. I stayed at home, feeling the Ginger feeling getting so suffocating that I thought I wouldn't survive the day! Sunday came and things were getting more irritating. I couldn't go out and do the things I should be doing. Funny but I had to admit I was running out of faith, too. I realized how weak I was, being a Christian.



I was so desperate looking for help. First level, I contacted my closed friends (well, that was I thought so). Second level, I contacted my long lost friends and, ehem, relatives. Nothing was working so I went up to the Third level. I contacted the no-no people. It was hurting me so much. Especially when there was this person I thought a friend to me, who offered indecent proposal! I was so offended that I was almost crying in my room.

I felt so bad that now your wishes are coming true, that they are actually there in front of you, but you can't touch them, I thought I was going crazy any moment. I thought I had done everything I could think of to have at least a solution to my problems.

There is also my family who is now putting more pressure on my shoulders. God, I know it is just a process and You are with us...but I am losing...so much now.

Since there was nothing I could do, I finally had my exercise back and I thought it felt so good. I read some good books, too. I cleaned my room thoroughly. And as if that was not enough, I sang all day. (Laughs)

You know when things are getting so cruel on you, in one way or another, something happens that makes you happy instantly. Mababaw lang naman akong tao. Just simple text messages from my friends had made me happy. And Gracia called me for like one and a half hours. It was nice talking to her.

Now I think I am feeling good. Yesterday I just finished my entry to the Top Blogs, I finished my Luneta story, I finished my survey questionnaires and sent them to my friends, and there were so much more.

Now I am good. To my friends who remained super patient with me, a big-time thank-you to y'all! God bless us all. Yeah, may God always bless us...

One more thing, I am planning to leave Calamba for awhile. I have to move into my Aunt's. Need internet connection. And also, I am planning to go back to my old home-Teletech.