The Story

Last Saturday morning was one of my happiest days at InfoNXX, we all graduated. Due to this, we planned to meet in Maki's place in Los Banos. Everyone was excited. I was with Aby on the shuttle. Cheenie was on my right side, Sailah was on her right. We were all seated at the back. It was really nice that people, these wonderful people, are my friends. I was really happy.

Jose Mari was texting me once in a while. But I didn't care that much anymore about him. I think his being my best friend doesn't apply anymore in my life. He never was a best friend to me. The reason why I am mentioning him right here is because, if only he 'is' still my best friend, I think I would not find it hard to find somebody to confide my emotional trouble right now.

I thought of Gracia. But she should be the last person to know. Or better, she should not know about any of this. She would be hurt. I don't want her to get hurt because of me. I have never been fair to her, so I don't think I have the guts to tell her anyway any of this.

8miles was always part of the first people I would like to talk to about my personal problems. But not this time. I tried it before with them, it was about a different thing and it didn't turn out that fine. It was because they are not only my friends, but Gracia's as well. So whatever wuold affect Gracia, it should not be the 8miles.

I thought of my newfound friends at InfoNXX, but they know the involved people. To cut it short, they are not the people I think should be talked about it.

And why i need someone to talk about it? Because it's a serious matter. Actually it's complicated. I do not know what will happen in the next coming days, and whatever happens, I want to tell it here, the real thing that happened. This is the truth.

Last Sunday, I was so excited. I went to Los Banos, at Olivarez. I met Sailah there. But before that, DC called me. She wanted me to go back to Calamba and meet them at WalterMart. So I went there. She was with Tim and Dan, her new boyfriend. Then I bought my assignments ( the Gin and the Kool Aid Strawberry flavor, like what Aby wanted ) and a roasted chicken. We waited for RZ, who was with Jason. We went to Picard, at Maki's place. Then Cheenie came with her husband. After some minutes, Sailah finally arrived with the palaka. Aby was with Vanet. We were almost complete. We started eating and drink a little. Then RZ and Jason left. After some time, Tim had to go with DC and Dan. An hour passed, Cheenie had to go with her husband. Aby, Sailah, and I were left at Maki's place.

I was drunk, and so Aby was. We were lying on our side, facing each other on Maki's airbed. We were talking about so many trivial things. It was nice talking with Aby. Yes, I was really about it. About the chance of being next to her that close. It was like a dream coming true. She was looking at me, I was looking at her. She was asking me about my petty text messages to her. I didn't know what to say. I just laughed everytime I couldn't give her my answer. She asked me about my dream about her. I said I couldn't tell her. She said why. I said it was...sexual. But she wanted details. I told her it could be whatever she and her boyfriend were doing. She asked me what was 'it' they were doing. I knew it was so obvious, right? She didn't have to dig into details. But she wanted me to tell more. Perhaps she was playing with me. And she was close - so close.
While we were talking I was getting close to her. Really close this time. I was touching her ears, her hair, circling my finger on her side neck. She liked it, I assumed because she didn't stop me at all. I went on touching her. I admit it that I was enjoying that as well. I felt so lucky. I was warm, hot actually. I could feel her skin, it was warm as well. The clues were there to tell me more. Maybe she was not seducing me deliberately but that's what was happening. Sailah entered the room and wanted to lay on the near the wall, that was Aby's part. But Aby insisted her to get the other side instead. She even said we were talking. It was nice to know she wanted more conversation with me. Sailah did what she said reluctantly. Then Maki took the space between me and Sailah. They ( Maki and Sailah ) went to sleep. Aby and I were still talking. Aby had her eyes close but I know she was still awake, she sometimes responded to my questions. And I could see the way she breathed. It was restless.

I touched her more. I even touched her ears with my lips. I dared even more. I explored my hands. I touched her. It took minutes, many minutes before I decided to get up and leave the bed before I went farther. I went to the Sala. I lay there, and slept. I woke up, still thinking of what I had already done. I was happy. I should be contented, but I wanted more. I went back, not to continue what I had started but to sleep with them. I hugged Maki to advert my thinking. But it was useless. I still thought of her. I tried to resist but the passion was stronger. I touched her again. It was like a drug that felt like I was getting addicted to. That no matter how much I wanted to stop, I couldn't but feeling the desire growing and aching to be satisfied. I don't know waht went on me, I did more the second time around.

I kissed her more, everywhere. When I say everywhere, I mean 'everywhere'. I was kissing her right breast while playing my finger on her. You know what I mean. She was responding to me. I know. I am so sure about it. She was trying to control her moans. But she did moan. I was so close to her, I could hear it. It was a music to my ear. It revved up my engine. I was totally getting out of control. It took even more minutes. The feeling was inexplicable. I stopped.

I waited for some minutes and decided to dare even more, you know what i mean. My reason was, although it was not a good reason but by nature I think it's acceptable, I was there already, almost getting 'there', why not finish what i had started? So I did it. Too much excitement I was feeling even made my member limp, I was desperate to force all my blood to get into there to achieve erection. It's humiliating. I tried to enter her, I almost did. But she suddenly realized what we were doing, from there she stopped me. I know Maki and Sailah were somehow awake.
Then Aby started confonting me. She was even trying to threaten me. I asked her what she wanted. She said she wanted me to tell the thing to Maki and Sailah. I told them I touched Aby. Aby insisted the whole truth. Then I told them that.

Then Aby wanted me to resign. She changed her mind. She said she would give me two weeks. Then after that the decision has to be done. Last Monday She was absent. I called her, she said she was not feeling well. I texted her to get well soon. She texted me thank you. I was guilty. But why should I? She did enjoy it as well. I know, but that doesn't say it's right. Every one was noticing I had changed. Especially Cheenie. But I can't tell her. It is weird maybe, but I want to protect Aby. Although I have an idea Aby had told to some of her friends about it already. It is not a good feeling.

And I am worried about Gracia as well.

I texted Alex last Monday. We would this Sunday. I really need someone to talk to.