Rising

I always say this : I am lucky. And I believe I am. There are so many things happening in my life. I am still a thinker. And a dreamer. It has been two weeks since I planned to start writing on something. Yet I was not even able to finish a paragraph. There were times I was thinking that it could be that I do not really have the talent on it. It hurt a lot. I was trying to do all the things according to my personal plans in my life. It frustrated me to see things were not the way I planned them. It pressured me so much. I came even to the point of giving up. I said to myself, "What's the use of trying? It seems not working at all." I was selfishly thinking of myself. I thought of dying, not thinking that I was hurting other people that I love. Gracia texted me words of encouragement, of love, of hope. It was funny. She made me laugh. Then she called, I thought she was crying on the phone. I asked her. She denied it. But she was crying. It surprised me and I felt ashamed and guilty.

That was more than two weeks ago. But I am still thinking of that day. I thank God, like I always do, for giving me Gracia.

I also realized some things. I think, things are not working the way I want them to be because God has a better plans for me. Now, I am learning to trust on His plans for me. It is not easy. But I know God is helping me to keep my faith firmer and stronger, through His Spirit and through the people who love me.

Now I can say I am fine and willing to wait. I am not alone on this. I have God, Gracia, my family, eightmiles, my friends, and ehem, my fans! I pray to God, to His Holy Name, that the next time I am going to write on my blog, it would be all about success that glorifies His Kindness and Love.

Dear Lord God, please bless us all. I love you. I adore You. You always make me cry in comfort of Your Spirit. Keep me safe and near You.

In Jesus's Name, Amen.

August 15, 2007 08:28 PM