Just That...
I am enjoying my busy and happy social life now! Saan ba ako magsisimula? I am okay. I don't think that much anymore. I keep my focus on what I have right now. No more list of priorities. Everyone, everything in my life is important to me. Whatever I have to offer, I will offer it to someone I know who deserves it. I am more relaxed now. I think it's still there, my old self. But right now, I am liking whatever I do now. No more plans-for now.
Last Tuesday, Jeff and I met in Walter Mart. There he lost his cellphone. Arnel was also with us. We didn't have so much time kasi may pasok pa din ako. Kumain lang kami ng siomai. I think okay lang kami. Kahit alam ko hindi na kagaya ng dati. When I looked at Arnel, I couldn't help it but think about how we did change. I don't know why love has to change the most beautiful things in our life in order to win. From there, I realized I don't have the power to keep all the people the way I want them to be. I thought our friendship would be the strongest one I would ever have. But then I had to wake up and see it before my eyes that it's not really like that. We're still in good terms. That makes it good. Sad part would be the bitter change. Everytime I look at him, I know he is thinking of me and Gracia. Our friends insist it's not really like that. That I am only imagining. No, I'm not. I know why he changed. I know the reasons why he had to change his priority list <> Pain, heartache has changed him. Sometimes I feel guilty about it. But why should I anyway?
Last week was really upsetting. But it was fine anyway. My birthday was just another common day added to my life. I thank the Lord kasi di Niya ako pinababayaan. Nung Friday shift, sila Aby at Tim lang ang pumasa. Masaya kaming lahat kasi they deserve it naman talaga. Saka we are all extended for another week which is really good. But this week could be my last week at InfoNXX. So ini-enjoy ko na lang lahat.
Nung Sabado, we <> went to Enchanted Kingdom. It was fun. Saka nakaka-release din ng stress. Huling punta ko doon eh eight years ago pa. Sumakay kami ng Anchor's Away agad. Sobra ang kaba ko. Pero okay lang. Hindi naman pala ganun nakakatakot gaya nung high school. Nag-enjoy talaga ako. Tapos Space Shuttle. Tapos Realto, Flying Fiesta, Swan Lake ( with Gem para sa makulit niyang anak na si Mico )at Wheel of Fate. Gusto nga nilang isama ko si Gracia. Gusto ko nga din kaso parang di fair kasi celebration yun ng birthday ni DC. Saka mas maganda yung makakapag-concentrate ako kapag kami lang ni Gracia. Masaya yung EK. Nandun din si Alvin Patrimonio, nag-judge siya ng costume contest. We took a picture with him. Hindi naman siya talaga nakaka-starstruck pero masaya yung experience na magpa-pic with him. Ang kulit ng anak ni Gem. Saka cute. Kumain kami ng Domino's. Bumili ako ng Dreamcatcher para kay Gracia. Tapos nun dumiretso kami nila Tim, Dan at DC sa bahay nila DC. Bumili sila ng Tequila. Mga 1:00am natulog na ako. Mga 5:00am na ako nagising. Na-meet ulit namin Daddy ni DC. He said he's going to work. Then DC told us he's not really going to work but going to the other woman. She cried. We tried to comfort her. Then we went to McDo somewhere in Binan.
Medyo nasira yata tiyan ko. I had to take diatabs pa, hahaha. Laba muna ako ng mga damit ko. Ang dami. Tapos I met Gracia sa Walter. I was thirty minutes late. We watched Resident Evil, romantic no? hehehe. Tapos nag-videoke kami. Mga twenty years bago ko makumpleto yung listahan ko ng mga kanta. I chose I'll be there, Can't help falling in love, at Half-crazy. Siya naman eh Too many walls. Alam ko na bawat line ng kantang iyon ay may sinasabi. Ganun din yung isa pang song na I need you. Alam ko na may mensahe siyang pinaparating. Pero mas mabigat yung huling song. If the feeling is gone. Parang nagalit ako sa sarili ko. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. I don't know how to comfort her. Tapos nun we went to Beanstalk. Sarado pala so we ate na lang sa Chowking instead. We talked more. I was so honest to her, telling her that I don't have priorities right now kasi I don't make plans muna. Ayoko muna mag-isip. I don't know if it was just my imagination pero I think I saw tears in the corners of her eyes. I hate myself for that. Hinatid ko siya. Through out that date, I didn't say 'I love you', neither did she.
Last night before I went to work I prayed to God that He keeps me safe. There was a technical problem sa floor kaya we took calls for like an hour only. ( Ang weird dito sa computer shop kasi kanina lang tinutugtog yung I'll be there by Martin Nievera, ngayon naman yung Half-crazy. )
Monday next week is a big day. God, please, bless us all!
Last Tuesday, Jeff and I met in Walter Mart. There he lost his cellphone. Arnel was also with us. We didn't have so much time kasi may pasok pa din ako. Kumain lang kami ng siomai. I think okay lang kami. Kahit alam ko hindi na kagaya ng dati. When I looked at Arnel, I couldn't help it but think about how we did change. I don't know why love has to change the most beautiful things in our life in order to win. From there, I realized I don't have the power to keep all the people the way I want them to be. I thought our friendship would be the strongest one I would ever have. But then I had to wake up and see it before my eyes that it's not really like that. We're still in good terms. That makes it good. Sad part would be the bitter change. Everytime I look at him, I know he is thinking of me and Gracia. Our friends insist it's not really like that. That I am only imagining. No, I'm not. I know why he changed. I know the reasons why he had to change his priority list <> Pain, heartache has changed him. Sometimes I feel guilty about it. But why should I anyway?
Last week was really upsetting. But it was fine anyway. My birthday was just another common day added to my life. I thank the Lord kasi di Niya ako pinababayaan. Nung Friday shift, sila Aby at Tim lang ang pumasa. Masaya kaming lahat kasi they deserve it naman talaga. Saka we are all extended for another week which is really good. But this week could be my last week at InfoNXX. So ini-enjoy ko na lang lahat.
Nung Sabado, we <> went to Enchanted Kingdom. It was fun. Saka nakaka-release din ng stress. Huling punta ko doon eh eight years ago pa. Sumakay kami ng Anchor's Away agad. Sobra ang kaba ko. Pero okay lang. Hindi naman pala ganun nakakatakot gaya nung high school. Nag-enjoy talaga ako. Tapos Space Shuttle. Tapos Realto, Flying Fiesta, Swan Lake ( with Gem para sa makulit niyang anak na si Mico )at Wheel of Fate. Gusto nga nilang isama ko si Gracia. Gusto ko nga din kaso parang di fair kasi celebration yun ng birthday ni DC. Saka mas maganda yung makakapag-concentrate ako kapag kami lang ni Gracia. Masaya yung EK. Nandun din si Alvin Patrimonio, nag-judge siya ng costume contest. We took a picture with him. Hindi naman siya talaga nakaka-starstruck pero masaya yung experience na magpa-pic with him. Ang kulit ng anak ni Gem. Saka cute. Kumain kami ng Domino's. Bumili ako ng Dreamcatcher para kay Gracia. Tapos nun dumiretso kami nila Tim, Dan at DC sa bahay nila DC. Bumili sila ng Tequila. Mga 1:00am natulog na ako. Mga 5:00am na ako nagising. Na-meet ulit namin Daddy ni DC. He said he's going to work. Then DC told us he's not really going to work but going to the other woman. She cried. We tried to comfort her. Then we went to McDo somewhere in Binan.
Medyo nasira yata tiyan ko. I had to take diatabs pa, hahaha. Laba muna ako ng mga damit ko. Ang dami. Tapos I met Gracia sa Walter. I was thirty minutes late. We watched Resident Evil, romantic no? hehehe. Tapos nag-videoke kami. Mga twenty years bago ko makumpleto yung listahan ko ng mga kanta. I chose I'll be there, Can't help falling in love, at Half-crazy. Siya naman eh Too many walls. Alam ko na bawat line ng kantang iyon ay may sinasabi. Ganun din yung isa pang song na I need you. Alam ko na may mensahe siyang pinaparating. Pero mas mabigat yung huling song. If the feeling is gone. Parang nagalit ako sa sarili ko. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. I don't know how to comfort her. Tapos nun we went to Beanstalk. Sarado pala so we ate na lang sa Chowking instead. We talked more. I was so honest to her, telling her that I don't have priorities right now kasi I don't make plans muna. Ayoko muna mag-isip. I don't know if it was just my imagination pero I think I saw tears in the corners of her eyes. I hate myself for that. Hinatid ko siya. Through out that date, I didn't say 'I love you', neither did she.
Last night before I went to work I prayed to God that He keeps me safe. There was a technical problem sa floor kaya we took calls for like an hour only. ( Ang weird dito sa computer shop kasi kanina lang tinutugtog yung I'll be there by Martin Nievera, ngayon naman yung Half-crazy. )
Monday next week is a big day. God, please, bless us all!
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